Ever have moments where you just want to crawl in a hole? I'm having one right now. Parenting is hard and today is one of those days I feel like I suck at it. I remembered yesterday afternoon that today was Courtney's end of year party and didn't know what to send in for it (at least I remembered before it was over). So I thought I was doing better.

Then as I am leaving school, I get a phone call from my husband letting my know my son has been suspended from school for pulling another child's pants down and if that's not enough when I get to school I am met by yet another teacher telling me that my son will not be allowed to participate in chorus performances because he (along with 2 other kids) is being a disruption to the entire class. I felt like someone had punched me in the gut. I went from being angry to being completely overwhelmed with sadness. What are we missing? I am a teacher..I do this for a living, I spend my entire day doing for other kids, thinking I have done what I needed to for my own yet somewhere along the way I'm missing something.

I think I'm at a loss for words, feeling a little overwhelmed and unprepared, Reminded of how my parents must have felt when I failed and how badly they must have hurt, unsure of how to feel - angry or sad, unsure of what to do, yet I am confident this did not catch God by surprise or leave Him speechless.